where

so its nearly holidays of sorts and such...

2006-11-18T01:56:33Z

im going to a wedding on thanksturkins day and im also going to try and make a meal... it looks like there is going to be a move in the near future as welll...... actually to the house next door if all goes well i suppose but who wants to move shite from house to house when im already living on the 3rd floor and have to go next door and up to the 2nd... pain in the motha f-in ass i say to you! and ill be going back to ca in maybe less than a year... love yallsss

get out this noise in my face

2006-03-31T22:56:54Z

this will always be the sound
leave it to me i will take care of the baby
hardly do we both see what is here before me
i try to shy it away but it haunts through, boy
i have twelve hours left till i break my bones
leave me the fuck alone
dont pull this to just say sorry later
im not going to bleed this one off so soon
get out i need some room
no i dont know you.

Last Night... what the fucfghsdgsgk????

2006-03-21T20:28:56Z

So I was at work mindin my own biz chattin with Danny .. making drinks on the bar... when the phone rings... "Starbucks 4th & South this is Jessie can I help you?" The person on the other line asks me to guess who this is and asks me who is there and if it's busy... so i expect it's someone who used to work there or still works there or knows all of us... I thought that it was an old manager who moved on to other things.. and so I said Kim? they responded with a yes and then proceeded to ask me if I mind if they ask me a few things I said no because we had no one in the store at the time... they proceed to ask more... personal stuff about my past and how freaky I was and by freaky i don't mean scary... I mean.... sexual stuff... and I told them because I didn't mind... THHHHEEEEN- then.... then they ask me if I mind that a girl goes down on them while talking to me on the phone about all this.. and I'm thinkin... I didn't know Kim was into girls... and I said sure why not. Eventually the call ends... Danny wants to know what's going on... but the person on the phone made me promise not to tell. Low and behold- Kim walks in and starts talkin to me.. I thought that it was her... so I asked hey can I tell Danny? he's a freak too and wouldn't think you're weird. She tells me she has no idea what I am talking about.... I start to worry... I take her into the stairwell and ask her if she's kidding and just does not want him to know... she says again that she has no idea what I am talking about... I told her and she just covered her mouth and laughed... and swore she didn't do it and promised she would tell me if it was her..... SO WHO ARE YOU OUT THERE CALLING ME AT WORK? DO I KNOW YOU? OR WAS THAT JUST RANDOM LUCK? i might never know...

hm.. california soon enough...

2006-03-11T00:48:02Z

i will be comming home soon... planning some time in april. this time i am bringing something back with me.. but only for a visit and to meet everyone. i will be bring matt with me. for those of you who are not aware who matt is... he is this tall linky guy who spends way too much time pooping and being by my side... i also like to call him my boyfriend. this will only be his second time in CA the first time he didnt get to really do much since they had to shoot some video. anyhow if anyone wants to hang out you better start to make your reservations because i will be there for two weeks and matt only one. also i like to make it sound like that is nessisary.. it makes me smile to say it.
and as for jon edwards if you ever stumble across this... let me remind you that you WILL be paying me back that money i dont care what it takes. dont get startled when i show up at your door one day with a great big smile on my face.
lots of love to the bitches
jbuck

Belated Birthday

2006-02-22T22:51:52Z

so yea if you know me pretty well you might know that i just had another birthday.. i turned 24 this month on the 20th (2 days ago) and for some reason i feel depressed. Not quite sure why... i just do. Another year, and nothing to look forward to except getting older. I know I have good things going for me but.. meh... i duno. :shrug: I wish I could get the people who owe me money to FUCKING PAY ME BACK but i dont know how soon or what it will take for me to actually get that accomplished. Jon Edwards- you still owe me $150 - Kelly La Favor- consider it a gift for the baby that I dont want the 250 from you anymore. Jeff C- you owe me $170

with all that money i could have taken myself to california and met my nephew I AM AN AUNT NOW!!!!... but unfortuneately i havnt gotten to yet... so if ya see your name above- you're nearing my shitlist and you dont want to wait until i have to come to your house and take it from you.
thanks
hugs not drugs

Long time it's been since i said what it isssss

2005-11-03T21:04:08Z

Hey everybody!

well here i am in the free library near some of the regular bars i attend... that much hasn't changed... i have my own place... my boyfriend moved in with me and we have been together for about 6 1/2 months ... wooooo congratulations to me... that's good in my book if you don't know me that well... i have a new job... i no longer work at the haunted house seeing that it's now november and whatnot.. i am a manager in training at a corporate job and... well that's it i suppose... the new and improved jessie buck gona come kick some ass biatchesssss! my sissy is pregnant and i need to go see her fat belly... i still don't have a phone yet so just voicemail.. i lost all my numbers so go ahead and post it here for me so i can fix it.. or myspace it to me ...whatevs .. look forward to seeing those of you whom i havnt seen in almost two years now if not more (depending where you live).. i should be making it back to california by feb to see the weee babe in my sisters belly.
love you and miss you my hos
-buck

Soooooo, meanwhile back at the haunted house..

2005-09-29T22:17:12Z

so here i am in the basement of some wherehouse in the dark... by myself and i gota pee.. and go too.. peace

pictures of fun times

2005-08-29T23:19:14Z

big wishes

2005-07-26T00:15:38Z

- that everyone i loaned large amounts of money to decided to be a friend and pay me back.
- that those who may think I owe them anything other than forgiveness, I have my reasons.
- that I wouldn't have anger issues.
- that i get an awesome new job.
- that i get to see some new good movies like the penguin march and well anything else that's good and still in theater for that matter.
- to go dancing on tues night and it be the best night i've had in a really long time.
- that i can be a great girlfriend to my boy.

jessbuck @ 2005-07-13T20:46:00

2005-07-14T00:51:32Z

your mom

love in the hood

sparklers.. woo

come sail away come sail away come SAAAILLLL away with meeee

2005-06-11T21:33:19Z

more pictures

this is my ho annie isnt she quite the lovely bitch

again she appears beside me at my birthday party... and the bonus question!!! what were we on..

john wayne autographed birthday gift (ok so it was forged)

three times the fun...uhhh geyyyyhhhh

mah bitch

again with my cousin this time and reno

I KICKED THIS SANTAS ASS ONCE WHEN ANNIE MADE ME MAD

how i love my adawg sexmachine baaaayyyyyyyyyybehhhh

oh sexy luke as sue

this art piece is done by annie perkins - jessasaurus rex

goodnight sweethearts

2005-06-08T11:10:25Z

it's time to go...
i love you all and im sure you know..
ill be back in a few months time
so, goodnight my loves goodnight
-jessbuck

jessbuck @ 2005-06-03T13:28:00

2005-06-03T20:45:39Z

http://img135.echo.cx/img135/5251/sleepy2ee.jpg

foghat, edgar winters band, and zztop - it was fun. now im sun burned. still would like to see some friends though. i might have lost my chance now though.

why am i here?

2005-06-03T19:51:50Z

well so far ive seen some of the people i want to see before i leave but not all of them. i need to see julia and i need to make it to the bay area... but right now im not feeling so great. as usual something like the 2nd or 3rd day being here i got into it with my dad. i dont listen to people who like to yell at me for stupid shit.

well i hope i get to see the bay area biatchez. call me on my cell.
or at my moms. my trip has been all right, thanks to my sis, reina, mel, and luke.

maybe make it back to sac i hope again for a few days. i wana dance on tues.
so far ive seen, my family, reina, melissa, luke, pete, john jensen, jeff, and... that's it. so uhhh.... yea dudes we need to chill i leave weds.

i think im supposed to get ahold of kyle, adawgs brother to go see that stupid bitch we like to call becki

californiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

2005-05-16T23:26:39Z

hey bitches im coming home on the 25th and i'll be there til the 8th for a visit.... soooooo if you wana visit me call me up. i am not leaving my number on here cuz i dont want certain people to know how to reach me that wander into this journal. all right peace out mutha fukkKKAAAAAzzzzzz

what am i doing

2005-03-26T23:08:06Z

-i am sitting in joes room being hungry and waiting for my laundry to finish so that i can have my room looking back to decent normalcy.
-i am going to cattle decapitation cuz im important and i get in free. the last part of that sentence makes me laugh.
-i am single but somewhat interested in someone and getting to know them more... just dont really know what to make of what i think about it thus far
-i am an alcoholic
-i have a shitty cold
-i owe a lot of money to hospitals but i just finished filling the bill insurance info out and have two envelopes with stamps ready to be sent in hand.
-i am letting someone waste my time this very minute by not leaving my house to do something far more productive
-as soon as i get health coverage im leaving philly to go visit california and when i get back ill get a second job and move
-i am very tired and i think im gona go finish the last laundry load smoke and peace out of this motha fukka
xoxo - jess

SHOW TONIGHT!!!!!!-- SUN 20th

2005-03-20T20:13:50Z

DIRECT CONTROL- first night of tour from richmond va
VIOLENT MINDS- hardcore from the burbs
HIT ME BACK- on tour from CA (who knows what they sound like people from california are crazy)

5PM MARCH 20TH $5
@ THE NOTHING HOUSE
1917 DICKINSON STREET

people can be really stupid

2005-03-11T16:59:27Z

so yea ive tried to not add people i dont really know somehow or chatted with for a while online to my myspace friends list cuz i find that to be stupid when you dont know someone.

i got a message and the conversation went a lil somethin like this...

stranger- i love your pics :)

me- thanks.

stranger- (tries to add me as a friend)

me- no offense or anything, nothing personal.. but we have never met correct? and all you said to me was nice pics... therefore i dont really know you and would rather not add someone i dont really know.

stranger- everthing is personal
wait no offense or anything, nothing personal.. but is the idea or notion of meeting someone new that you don't already know that fucking scary or is it that in your perfect sheltered little world, human contact and the desire to interact with different and interesting people most not appeal to you.
I most apologize if I was foolish enough to think that you might want to talk to someone outside your immediate circle of friends.

me- look idiot,
now you are going as far as to judge me and think you know more than about an eyedroppers worth of information about me... thus creating you the foolish one. wake up.. i said i dont add people if i dont know them, that does not forbid a conversation as such (creating a form of getting to know someone).. and you really proved not worth the time afterall considering your emense form of anger following a very logical respone of mine. number one- how many people do i have on my friends list---doest that look like an immediate circle? well fuck thats a big ass circle if you ask me.. number two-i do spend nearly my whole life at work... and so the people i hang out with... the number amount isnt always that large, unless we are having shows and or parties. or im attending one. dont be such a baby, there is no good reason for me to add an asshole especially if i dont know them. i know plently of assholes and you are not that appealing momentairly based on your lack of logic and attempt to talk to me and get to know me making me more comfortable adding you because i find no good reason to add random people so i can upp my stat number of friends. im not that much in desire to be a liar. ive no one to impress.
PS- i live far from a perfect sheltered world, why dont you ask me about my life instead of assume you are the all knowing and know exactly how i am. sheltered? does living in a car.. and being addicted to speed for a year sound sheltered? or how bout being molested and nearly raped? yea that sounds sheltered.. how about being in a relationship and being lied and cheated on and then kicked out of the house with no place to go because you moved across the united states to be with that person... i dont find the need to continue that list unless you were really that interested .. showing you were not from your inability to ask a simple question like... why might you not want to add someone you dont know.. or ask something to get to know me instead.. as i have been described by others before "jessie likes everyone she knows" that is true to an extent. it takes a lot for me to not like someone usually. and you well stepped towards that arena. to me there is no such thing as an immediate circle of friends. i have a lot of friends i love and care deeply for regardless of how difficult they may be at times. thats life, and learning to love everyone you know like a huge family.
im sure ive been through far more than you have even if i am origonally from californias beaches when i was a kid.

hahahahaha

2005-03-11T05:40:51Z

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HEALTH -denied.

2005-03-10T18:34:22Z

I was denied by the department of lame for health benefits and food stamps. So my pills will be costing me somewhere near $150 a month. And I have over a several thousands of bucks in hospital bills stacking themselves up as is. I am planning to appeal the health at least to have a face to face hearing and see where I can take myself with what my mother has taught me about human services, and what my father has taught me about legalities on my own now. I feel this to be a true test that I should be able to pass being my father a lawyer and mother someone who works for the department of human services, back home. Keep your fingers crossed and your prayers going for me (depending on whom you may be of course) that I will beat this fucking shit to the ground and get what I need to survive. I can't afford to pay to go to the hospital and I know I am very sick right now. I refuse to make my parents pay more for me unless I end up in another ambulence and have no other choice.

today at work..

2005-03-09T06:37:18Z

funny day to begin with.. then greatest time in a while for maybe .. about an hour or more. lost my wallet.. walked around with someone who means a lot to me. i miss my friend pete who came into town shortly and visited me at work. he stole my favorite jacket. i wish he didn't have to leave so soon.

MADNESS

2005-03-03T19:24:45Z

yea so this time of the year is a bit mad. maybe we all need a moment to sit back relax and enjoy the motha fuckin music right? well im glad you all agree, so here's a bit of a light to shed in that area...
The Nothing House is having a party this Saturday.
Please come and join the fun, there will be a few bands playing.. who? good question cuz i duno... but i do know there will be music i just dont remember who.. ill know that info when i get out of this chair. yes i do take advantage of my sitting time. its not that often i find myself in a chair.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO everyone please come to the fuckin party on sat. apparently it starts at 6pm. I have to work all night or at least til 12 but i'll be here as soon as i can get my ass home.

...

2005-03-01T18:32:56Z

watching me disintegrate? if by disintegrate you mean maintain a job, pay my bills, continue to not do hard drugs, get out of a relationship that wasn't very promissing, get my health care situated, and make more goals that i will meet..? than yes that is what you've witnessed. as for my health expect it to be like this.. im a fucking epileptic and prone to get sick.. allergies like you wouldnt believe and happen to not notice. this time of the year i get sick. i wish you would not push me so hard to leave, but i'm working on it. i know you care but i really dont understand why you are acting like this to me.

PARTYYYYY

2005-02-22T02:26:06Z

Come mourn the death of Hunter S. Thompson tonight at
19th and Dickinson - 1917
He shot himself in the head yesterday and tonight we will be drinking shots of PBR in memory of him. Come join us and bring a friend.
617 869 9595

jessbuck @ 2005-02-21T18:50:00

2005-02-21T23:51:37Z

hahaha birthdays are always cool